Pretending as I'm not Pretending

i dunt know what my title means..but the words pretending is keep repeating in my mind..it just keep repeating as i have to pretend that nothing has occur or i have to do something..mybe this time is not right..mybe i just should forget it..mybe i should keep silent..because even though we fought..and i win he lost..but i still lost in the real world or maybe i have to do something. i hate to be treated like this..and i dun like myself miserable..can i just forget as it never happen to my life..no no..the world see it..and everybody knows about it..how can you handle this?please stop doing this....just stop..u hurting me..again.