Pretending as I'm not Pretending

i dunt know what my title means..but the words pretending is keep repeating in my mind..it just keep repeating as i have to pretend that nothing has occur or i have to do something..mybe this time is not right..mybe i just should forget it..mybe i should keep silent..because even though we fought..and i win he lost..but i still lost in the real world or maybe i have to do something. i hate to be treated like this..and i dun like myself miserable..can i just forget as it never happen to my life..no no..the world see it..and everybody knows about it..how can you handle this?please stop doing this....just stop..u hurting me..again.

Addicted

i bcome addicted to write in my blog..now i know why so many people have their own blog..its a one medium to express ur feelings and thought..doesnt matter for happy time or sad time..but for me usually..this blog is for

1. crapping
2. express ur unsatissfied feelings
3. sad
4. cry
5. hate
6. and life

mostly..i write when i'm sad..but this blog title "everyday i love my life" should be all my happy things..all the good things happen to my life..but currently all the sad thing is happen..so should i change my title? "everyday i hate my life"  No No No..i'm not that kind of person..i;m so grateful and thankful to my life..Thanks ya ALLAH for all of this..i know u love me..i love u too and i have a lot of faith of u. doesnt matter what people said..i know myself better..and i know what the best for me.

Miss Him

Dear diary..

i miss him so much..hope to see him soon. :)

Empty..

ok..all my document is deleted...n now..i donno what to begin with??i have to do all my work back..n now..she email me n said for me to be proactive..how can i be more proactive..i dun have any passion to do my work..i feel empty..i feel i want to resign..but..where i should be?is there any work for me?is there any place for me? i hope i can gain much energy to overcome this feeling..arghh feel so terrible