Pretending as I'm not Pretending

i dunt know what my title means..but the words pretending is keep repeating in my mind..it just keep repeating as i have to pretend that nothing has occur or i have to do something..mybe this time is not right..mybe i just should forget it..mybe i should keep silent..because even though we fought..and i win he lost..but i still lost in the real world or maybe i have to do something. i hate to be treated like this..and i dun like myself miserable..can i just forget as it never happen to my life..no no..the world see it..and everybody knows about it..how can you handle this?please stop doing this....just stop..u hurting me..again.

Addicted

i bcome addicted to write in my blog..now i know why so many people have their own blog..its a one medium to express ur feelings and thought..doesnt matter for happy time or sad time..but for me usually..this blog is for

1. crapping
2. express ur unsatissfied feelings
3. sad
4. cry
5. hate
6. and life

mostly..i write when i'm sad..but this blog title "everyday i love my life" should be all my happy things..all the good things happen to my life..but currently all the sad thing is happen..so should i change my title? "everyday i hate my life"  No No No..i'm not that kind of person..i;m so grateful and thankful to my life..Thanks ya ALLAH for all of this..i know u love me..i love u too and i have a lot of faith of u. doesnt matter what people said..i know myself better..and i know what the best for me.

Miss Him

Dear diary..

i miss him so much..hope to see him soon. :)

Empty..

ok..all my document is deleted...n now..i donno what to begin with??i have to do all my work back..n now..she email me n said for me to be proactive..how can i be more proactive..i dun have any passion to do my work..i feel empty..i feel i want to resign..but..where i should be?is there any work for me?is there any place for me? i hope i can gain much energy to overcome this feeling..arghh feel so terrible

Life....

Assalamualaikum...

its been 5 days after my birthday..but until now..i'm still feel vey sad..There is no more smiling or laughing from my face..its just a fake smile and say to everyone  "I was okay..yeah..i'll be olrite..dun wori about me.." yeah..dats just a lie..instead..deep down in my heart..i feel been hurt.. dunno why..like everything from my life become upside down.i feel like my life like sucks.auchhh..no no ..i dun want to say it like that..is this some kind of punishment or dugaan?? i dunno..i keep thinking n thinking about my past...my future..what will i'll be?? can i handle this alone..eventhough i know everyone are behind my back, support me..but why my heart crying silently??i just hope..everything will be alrite..i pray for my life..i hope..i'm gonna be okay soon..please2..i want my smile back..i want my laugh back..i know..ader hikmah disebalik ni..mybe this thing make me grown up..more matured..responsible..independent.... i'll try to repeated this words again n again until i dunno what is that mean??Ya ALLAH..bantulah hambamu yg daif ini..aminn..

 I LOVE MY LIFE!!!
 I LOVE MY LIFE!!!
 I LOVE MY LIFE!!!
 I LOVE MY LIFE!!!
 I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

Its all about me~

Hello and Assalamualaikum…huhu..thank you..thank you for reading the first time ever, my blog entry. Huhu..sangat2..excited yerk untuk menaip entry ni..since ini adalah yang pertama sekali..n this is new thing for me..There is first time for everything..okep, enough for all that..

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My name is Ida Nurhidaya A.Aziz. IDA is from combination of my parents name..so sweetkan..haha..my mother’s name actually Salmah Bt Md Noor..However, since kecik2..dia asik nangis jerk..n xleh bawa nama tue..*bak kt org tue2 nm dia berat..so my atok tukar nama dia jadik Fadillah..n they call her illah.so I is for illah. n then my father name is A.Aziz B. Sahari..ramai yg dh tnya, A. is stand for what?? Is stand for abdul bebeh.so A= Aziz..then when it combined it all I=ILLAH, D=DAN, A=AZIZ. NUR= Cahaya and HIDAYA= Petunjuk

IDA NURHIDAYA means illah dan aziz, cahaya petunjuk..

 They called me Miss Skin Tone..ahaha..i’m so honoured to get that nickname.

 

FYI, all my siblings have IDA at the front of their names except for my only brother Mohd Faiz(faiz)* maybe my parents forgot to letak ADI at his front name..mybe dh excited sgt dapat anak laki at that time..huhu . The rest of my siblings name Ida Nurazilla(ida), Ida Nurdalilla(lela) n Ida Nuradhwa(adwa).so my fren, to make it easier, you can call me NUR as well because that is my manja name a.k.a my glamer name..ahaha..

me n my family

Okeps, that’s all for now..nnt kita smbung lagik yerk..

idarieka